Rebuilding

In February I was afflicted by an illness (or many, still not sure) that kept me down for many weeks. I probably antagonized the situation by running 13.1 miles in near freezing temps but regardless of who or what is at fault, being under the weather for weeks on end has been not so much fun. I have a little over a month (one day over to be exact) to try and get ready for my next scheduled 1/2... sounds painful.

But rebuilding always starts with a first: step, mile, stone, wall. With the arrival of spring, longer days, warmer temps, and the return of birds I haven't heard in many months, I am for the first time in a while looking forward to new beginnings, or at least not looking back so much. I've been working on some projects around the house, brewing new beers, and thinking about the future in ways I haven't in a while. Time and distance are finally doing what they should, giving me the strength to start rebuilding. Putting up walls, parsing the great from the not so great, stepping back and looking at what's left, what I want to keep and what should be discarded. And also moving on to new things, deciding what to be open to in the future, and what should be passed by. Most tangibly, now that I am (nearly) healthy, I am looking forward to being able to run again, and ride!

It seems it will always be one day at a time, but the days, and the absence, grows less burdensome. For this, I am thankful. "So I think it's best we both forget before we dwell on it."